2011 Sucked

Like it’s not bad enough that I lose my Mom this year but I just lost, quite literally at 12:26 today, my sweet angel puppy Fizzy to pancreatitis and peritonitis, he was only 7.   He was such a magical dog and I know everyone says that about their dog but no matter how angry or sad you were all you had to do was look in his sweet face.   He was my daughters dog but really he was everyone’s dog.  Since my daughter moved out my boyfriend and him were like to peas in a pod, so obviously he’s devistated as well. Now it’s just me and my German Sheppherd Jazzy in my office working together both of us feeling like we’re missing something and we are.  My daughter said it best on FB:

Today was probably the hardest day of my life, I had to say goodbye to one of my best friends.  Fizzy was diagnosed with Canine Pancreatitis, Peritonitis and a tumor in his bladder.  He was only seven years old, but as much as his life was cut short, he lived every min of his life with a smile on his face.  I never thought I would loose my grandmother and my dog all in the same year but I guess that’s just the way life goes.  Fizzy touched a lot of people’s hearts both big and small, if you were ever having a bad day no matter what the situation, just one glance at him or a snuggle would bring you right back up, he was my happy drug.  I never considered this dog as a dog, I considered him my baby, I know a lot of people think it’s weird when others feel this way towards animals but it’s true, he wasn’t an animal to us, he was a part of this family, a part of our lives and a part of my heart that will never be replaced.  I remember the first day I brought fizzy home,  I held him in a baby blanket and promised him that no matter what happened I would always be here for him, and that’s just what I did, I drove 4 hours back home, to hold him, hold his paw, kiss his little forehead one last time.  I kept my promise and all I truly hope for now, is that he feels how much he was loved and how much he will be missed, and I also hope that he’s with my grandmother and her brother, cuddling on her lap while she parties with everyone I’ve lost.  I love you forever and always Fizzy, you will always be in my heart and in my mind until it’s my time, and only then can I hope that it’s you who comes and brings me to wherever we go when it’s our time.  You were the best dog I’ve ever had.  xoxoxoxo mommy loves you.

I don’t know about you but I’m going to be very fucking happy to bid a fuck you farewell to 2011 in 10 hours.  We’re gonna miss the hell out of ya Lil Buddy…